OMG!!! How nice is it to talk bout the past. Just had a roughly 30minutes chat with Miss Bee and I started to miss my past like hell. No doubt past times are always the best, especially childhood. My best times was when I'm 12 years old. I have my great and crazy friends & my wonderful lovely teachers. The laughter and fun we had always remains in my mind and never be erased. Sometime I really really wish that time is reversible. Life would be much more easier. I do not stress like now, do not worry as much as i do now, even studies are easier. All I have to do everyday was to laugh with you all. I'd never dislike any classmates or teachers like I do nowadays. I just miss the time with you all. I could not describe what I'm feeling right now. All I could say was that I MISS TIME WITH YOU ALL, MY TRUE FRIENDS!
OMG! What a lame school i'm in?! How can electric supplies got cut in the middle of an event? Why can't you change the lame old mic so that we can hear clearer? Why can't you just improve a little so that you never embarrass yourself? Oh God~~
I'm close to tears. Again you're blaming me. Why can't you see your mistakes? Why do you always pinpoint other's when you're not any better? I know you'll never understand how I feel.
I'm feeling so miserable. Why can't you understand my feelings? I've been with you for 4years and yet you never thank me once for supporting. How long have you know them? Yet you're thanking them in public for supporting you as if i did nothing for you and I don't deserve to be appreciated.
Sadness overwhelmed me. Causing me unable to sleep. Just like the song "Breakeven", "while I'm awake he's no trouble sleeping". You don't know that i cried because of you. You don't know that you caused my heart to ache. All you know is that I'm not good enough, not being patient. What you expect from me after a month of isolation from you? All you know is send me a message whenever you want and ignore me TOTALLY whenever you want too.
I'm still awake at 1a.m when you probably having sweet dreams. Feeling so deeply hurt that I can feel nothing else. Though I feel a little better after crying but that doesn't help me to get to sleep. Keep turning in the bed, keep thinking bout you and me, putting myself into a more miserable state. It's 2.53 a.m, cried for the second time. But you're still sleeping.
I have no idea what I can do to let myself relax my mind and sleep. I tried not to think, but I think more instead. Say the prayer in my head again and again, thankfully it worked. I feel better, more calm and soothe. I started to feel tired, and able to sleep slightly after 3.
Why do we always get the wrong timing? I'm asleep around 3 and your message is 3.15.
Why do you put all the blames on me? I'm still sad. Yeah I'm treating you cold, but you deserve it! I want you to feel how I feel, though I know you might never know how I feel. All you think is yourself. There's more room for your friends and less for me. When will you start to realize how much you hurt me?
Sadness overwhelmed me. Causing me unable to sleep. Just like the song "Breakeven", "while I'm awake he's no trouble sleeping". You don't know that i cried because of you. You don't know that you caused my heart to ache. All you know is that I'm not good enough, not being patient. What you expect from me after a month of isolation from you? All you know is send me a message whenever you want and ignore me TOTALLY whenever you want too.
I'm still awake at 1a.m when you probably having sweet dreams. Feeling so deeply hurt that I can feel nothing else. Though I feel a little better after crying but that doesn't help me to get to sleep. Keep turning in the bed, keep thinking bout you and me, putting myself into a more miserable state. It's 2.53 a.m, cried for the second time. But you're still sleeping.
I have no idea what I can do to let myself relax my mind and sleep. I tried not to think, but I think more instead. Say the prayer in my head again and again, thankfully it worked. I feel better, more calm and soothe. I started to feel tired, and able to sleep slightly after 3.
Why do we always get the wrong timing? I'm asleep around 3 and your message is 3.15.
Why do you put all the blames on me? I'm still sad. Yeah I'm treating you cold, but you deserve it! I want you to feel how I feel, though I know you might never know how I feel. All you think is yourself. There's more room for your friends and less for me. When will you start to realize how much you hurt me?
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Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Friends forever~
OMG!!! How nice is it to talk bout the past. Just had a roughly 30minutes chat with Miss Bee and I started to miss my past like hell. No doubt past times are always the best, especially childhood. My best times was when I'm 12 years old. I have my great and crazy friends & my wonderful lovely teachers. The laughter and fun we had always remains in my mind and never be erased. Sometime I really really wish that time is reversible. Life would be much more easier. I do not stress like now, do not worry as much as i do now, even studies are easier. All I have to do everyday was to laugh with you all. I'd never dislike any classmates or teachers like I do nowadays. I just miss the time with you all. I could not describe what I'm feeling right now. All I could say was that I MISS TIME WITH YOU ALL, MY TRUE FRIENDS!
Friday, April 16, 2010
What a shame~
OMG! What a lame school i'm in?! How can electric supplies got cut in the middle of an event? Why can't you change the lame old mic so that we can hear clearer? Why can't you just improve a little so that you never embarrass yourself? Oh God~~
Sad~
I'm close to tears. Again you're blaming me. Why can't you see your mistakes? Why do you always pinpoint other's when you're not any better? I know you'll never understand how I feel.
Miserable~
I'm feeling so miserable. Why can't you understand my feelings? I've been with you for 4years and yet you never thank me once for supporting. How long have you know them? Yet you're thanking them in public for supporting you as if i did nothing for you and I don't deserve to be appreciated.
Sadness overwhelmed me. Causing me unable to sleep. Just like the song "Breakeven", "while I'm awake he's no trouble sleeping". You don't know that i cried because of you. You don't know that you caused my heart to ache. All you know is that I'm not good enough, not being patient. What you expect from me after a month of isolation from you? All you know is send me a message whenever you want and ignore me TOTALLY whenever you want too.
I'm still awake at 1a.m when you probably having sweet dreams. Feeling so deeply hurt that I can feel nothing else. Though I feel a little better after crying but that doesn't help me to get to sleep. Keep turning in the bed, keep thinking bout you and me, putting myself into a more miserable state. It's 2.53 a.m, cried for the second time. But you're still sleeping.
I have no idea what I can do to let myself relax my mind and sleep. I tried not to think, but I think more instead. Say the prayer in my head again and again, thankfully it worked. I feel better, more calm and soothe. I started to feel tired, and able to sleep slightly after 3.
Why do we always get the wrong timing? I'm asleep around 3 and your message is 3.15.
Why do you put all the blames on me? I'm still sad. Yeah I'm treating you cold, but you deserve it! I want you to feel how I feel, though I know you might never know how I feel. All you think is yourself. There's more room for your friends and less for me. When will you start to realize how much you hurt me?
Sadness overwhelmed me. Causing me unable to sleep. Just like the song "Breakeven", "while I'm awake he's no trouble sleeping". You don't know that i cried because of you. You don't know that you caused my heart to ache. All you know is that I'm not good enough, not being patient. What you expect from me after a month of isolation from you? All you know is send me a message whenever you want and ignore me TOTALLY whenever you want too.
I'm still awake at 1a.m when you probably having sweet dreams. Feeling so deeply hurt that I can feel nothing else. Though I feel a little better after crying but that doesn't help me to get to sleep. Keep turning in the bed, keep thinking bout you and me, putting myself into a more miserable state. It's 2.53 a.m, cried for the second time. But you're still sleeping.
I have no idea what I can do to let myself relax my mind and sleep. I tried not to think, but I think more instead. Say the prayer in my head again and again, thankfully it worked. I feel better, more calm and soothe. I started to feel tired, and able to sleep slightly after 3.
Why do we always get the wrong timing? I'm asleep around 3 and your message is 3.15.
Why do you put all the blames on me? I'm still sad. Yeah I'm treating you cold, but you deserve it! I want you to feel how I feel, though I know you might never know how I feel. All you think is yourself. There's more room for your friends and less for me. When will you start to realize how much you hurt me?
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