I Miss You??

For four long years we'd been together. There's never a day that we're not talking to each other, not even when you're oversea. But why didn't you bother to message me today? Why? When did you started to be a ruthless guy? What make you become one? You lied about how much you love me, how much you miss me everyday, how you wish to be with me everyday. Lies, lies and more lies. Does that mean it's time for us to end this chaotic relationship? Don't ask me why didn't I message you instead, because I wanted to know how much I matter to you. I got the answer. Thank you so so much for letting me know how much you NEED me. Can you bear not talking to me for an hour in the past? I doubt so. Now? I think you don't wish to talk to me at all. I know there's a lot of girls much better than myself revolving around you everyday. If you want to be with them I don't mine. All you have to do is just tell me and I'll let go. Why do you wanna torture me this way? Just why? You could just ditch me, leave me and be with them. Is "mercy" ever in your dictionary?
You can give all those damn reasons that you're busy with your studies or that I'm too busy with my games and friends and all but I know those are all just excuses! Nothing can ever stop you from talking to me if you really want to. Its just that you don't love me anymore and wish not talk to me. But why drag? Just say the word and you can do whatever you want. It's not easy to stop myself from messaging you. Though I succeeded but I'm not happy. I miss you. I know you care no more bout me, just that I'm still being an idiot thinking that you still love me though I know you hate me more than you love me. Why do I still thinking bout the past, thinking the way you hold my hands, the way you hug me, you saying "I Love You" and all. Why? Why do i wanna miss you? Yeah I know. Because I'm stupid. I'm a total idiot.