Perceptions and truths

Whatever you see or hear may not be the way you think it is.
A truth is a truth, a perception is a perception.
Not all perceptions are truths.
You see what's outside of me but you see nothing inside of me. You don't know what I'm thinking, what I really want and who I really am. But I'm pretty sure what you think about me is wrong. The truth is, I cared and still care. Couldn't deny it that I'm still leading my life happily everyday but no one sees the missing part in my life. I never told anyone about it and don't want to either. All I want is to find back the missing part someday.
It was suppose to be a happy day, a day of reunion, a day of joy, a day of fun, a day of everything, but something is missing. Though it's still a happy day, it was a day of incomplete as well. Something which was suppose to be there wasn't there. Why? Just because a misunderstanding, a misconception I suppose. Didn't expect that incompleteness anyway but what can I do? Something passed and it becomes a past. Past can never be changed but future is our choice. It's not easy to do something but when I'm ready to do it, you chose to fail me. Couldn't do anything bout it but just wait for a second time maybe. Things come and go, but you stay. You're a part that I chose to keep.

I failed~

I thought I will never cry because of it... because of you all again...
I failed... My eyes are bathed with tears while talking and making it clear to you...
I just realised that I still care bout you all... And the hurt you all did is too much to bear...
Your apology might be a little too late... But it's alright...
And if it isn't because of the 10years I will say "I don't freaking care".
Just hope that you all will never do that again... Cause it really really hurt a lot...

珍惜~~

哈哈哈。。。
虽然有点过份，但是你们真的很好笑。
突然觉得你好幸运认识他们。
当初让我觉得自卑的事，现在反而让我觉得庆幸。
如果没有这样的安排，也许就看不到你们那爱玩的样子了。
没想到在我不愉快的时候，竟然是你们让我笑了。
很喜欢看到你们那种捣蛋，顽皮又好笑的模样。
也许很多人认为你们坏，连我自己也曾这么想。
可是现在我觉得你们只是好玩。
要保持这种快乐。
希望你们彼此珍惜，好朋友不易找哦。
祝你们好运。

我不属于你的世界

是好奇还是关心?
没关系，对我来说没分别。
我很感谢你让我体验到何谓新的永远是比较好的。
我从来没想过会如此被对待-很失望，很伤心。
因为太在意你的所作所为，我伤了自己。
曾经因为你而流的眼泪，突然觉得好不值得。
没关系，这是因为我笨。
可是我又再一次因为你而流泪。
但这次我不后悔。
我哭得起，这眼泪我流得起。
而且我庆幸我为你流泪。。。因为这证明了我不像你-冷清。
曾经把我自己的故事都讲给你听，丝毫不留的讲完一切。
对你我更本没有防备之心。
我后悔了。
防人之心不可无，是真的。
虽然你不算背叛我对你的信赖，但已足够造成很大的伤害。
不管一个人对你有多好，也许明天他以经把你忘了。
我想我买的那本书，那支笔，应该用不着了吧。
你如何对待我，我要学会不去介意。
至少不会再被伤害。
除此之外，还要学会独立。
不再依靠你了。
再过一段时间我就不用看到你了。
到时候，将会是个新的开始。
谢谢你曾经带给我的快乐。
那种快乐就像彩虹，始终会消失。
如今彩虹渐渐消失。
有点不舍得，因为这彩虹陪伴我太旧了。
可是我还是要放手-再把他遗忘。
我的世界下了两天雨。现在是阴天。
正所谓雨过天晴。 我相信我世界会回到晴天. It's just a matter of time.
我已经渐渐接受现实-我不属于你的世界。

I Miss You??

For four long years we'd been together. There's never a day that we're not talking to each other, not even when you're oversea. But why didn't you bother to message me today? Why? When did you started to be a ruthless guy? What make you become one? You lied about how much you love me, how much you miss me everyday, how you wish to be with me everyday. Lies, lies and more lies. Does that mean it's time for us to end this chaotic relationship? Don't ask me why didn't I message you instead, because I wanted to know how much I matter to you. I got the answer. Thank you so so much for letting me know how much you NEED me. Can you bear not talking to me for an hour in the past? I doubt so. Now? I think you don't wish to talk to me at all. I know there's a lot of girls much better than myself revolving around you everyday. If you want to be with them I don't mine. All you have to do is just tell me and I'll let go. Why do you wanna torture me this way? Just why? You could just ditch me, leave me and be with them. Is "mercy" ever in your dictionary?
You can give all those damn reasons that you're busy with your studies or that I'm too busy with my games and friends and all but I know those are all just excuses! Nothing can ever stop you from talking to me if you really want to. Its just that you don't love me anymore and wish not talk to me. But why drag? Just say the word and you can do whatever you want. It's not easy to stop myself from messaging you. Though I succeeded but I'm not happy. I miss you. I know you care no more bout me, just that I'm still being an idiot thinking that you still love me though I know you hate me more than you love me. Why do I still thinking bout the past, thinking the way you hold my hands, the way you hug me, you saying "I Love You" and all. Why? Why do i wanna miss you? Yeah I know. Because I'm stupid. I'm a total idiot.

I Miss You??

Exam!

Wooo... Time flies. In a blink of eyes and it's already gonna be June. Which means 5more months to SPM. That sucks. Why do I feel time passes a little too fast these days? Mid-term exam is just tomorrow and here I am, online still busy with RC. ahahaha
Seriously have no idea what scores I gonna get. Just pray hard that I don't fail any subjects. God knows how terrible it was if I fail any subjects. And I studied even when exam was far away, something I'd never done in the past. So if my results get worse, screw it. So 10 subjects in 2 weeks.Then it's holiday ( which means unlimited sleeping time =D ). Holiday..... girl, maybe you should not put too much hope in that beach trip or you'll be really disappointed. Haha